My story

He was the best friend that a girl could want... well I thought so…

The day was cold and stressful… every first day of school is stressful but that year I felt it more maybe because my holidays with my parents weren't nice, I wasn't happy I had already known it but I had to do something to find happiness in my life I'd already decided it.

Everything in my life was in the wrong direction, I didn't feel myself… I was just living because I have to but I didn't want to. I had to forget all my problems… I had to leave them at home, I had to...I had to… I repeated it to myself all the time at the time I walked into the classroom he was there with that beautiful smile I noticed since the last year but I never pay attention to him, he was just the boy who I share class and friends… he was just a guy. He said hello to me I answer him with my fake smile that smile I used all days of the past summer… the truth is that I didn't want to talk or be to anyone, I just wanted to be alone and far away.

The class finished of course I didn't pay attention to anything my mind was so tired because of all my feelings, problems, my life in general… I didn't mind what the teacher said or needed. When I realized that I needed something for the next class I decided to ask him what the homework was… obviously he helped me out, he asked me how my holidays were and if I was ok …I thought he was so sweet to ask me… I said I was ok and my holidays were nice… I lied to him of course why would I say the truth… he was just a guy.

The days passed and I began to talk to him more and more, unfortunately I didn't have classes with my friends so I decided to meet him more besides he had always looked so mysterious to me and I thought he was very interesting person… and I wasn't wrong. We began to be together all the time and I saw the sweetness guy he was… I needed some love and kindness in my life and he used to be the right friend for that moment in my life.

We started to share beautiful moments together, he told me his secrets… I told him mine, he deserved to know what's going on in my life… now he was part of it. He supported me in a really unique way… a way I'd never experienced in that moment he turned into my best friend. Both of us needed someone who support us… we're together in the right moment that's why we became best friends and I was so happy when I was with him… maybe that's the reason I let him did everything he wanted… I was happy if he was happy. At the time I was with him I found myself, I realized what I wanted and needed, he made me find myself in the darkness… he was my light in the darkest moment of my life, he was the key of my resurrection and that's why I'll be grateful with him all my life.

At some point we began to have problems… I knew anything is perfect and maybe I did everything I could to make him happy… I thought that's the right thing to do… that worked for some time. He began to change with me, he tried to make me feel bad with myself and did awful things to me maybe he wanted to be different but anyone can't try to change what you are, I didn't know at that moment because I trusted him so much that I let him did with him whatever he wanted.

One day I realized how much he was hurting me well that was my fault because I let him and I forgot myself and all the respect I deserve because I am the only protagonist in my life anyone has the right to make me feel sad or bad with myself… I am the only one who can change what I want and need. And don't matter how much you love him or be grateful with him, you always have to be sure about who you are and you can't change in order to be with someone.

Ximena Beatriz Martinez Moreno 1161915